moroseness would be mild

i thought things would feel better today.
i thought it would get better since the worst was over.
i thought people would still be sensitive to me as their friend, and not just to my position.
i guess friendship and work are separate enitities.
But why does it still feel like they're going behind my back?
don't dwell on it.
stop thinking about it.
but i can't.
and i really don't need this now.