Lovely

Love is that faded grey jumper with the hole in it that's been machine-washed too many times but you just can't bear to throw out.

Love is the teddy bear that smells faintly of linen and has lost some of its fluffiness that sometimes you leave aside for months but is always there for a cuddle.

Love is John Mayer on a Sunday afternoon.

Love is calling 5 minutes before rushing off just to hear your voice.

Love is warm laundry on a cold day.

Love is a postcard in the mail.

Love is a big hug just because.

Love is everywhere.

Love is perfect.

Soccer Bonding

2nd Day of Holidays!
Seems pretty full of soccer. Liverpool lost but i think it was good that they were making a few good chances. Oh well, we conceded a really good goal (seriously.. not just the loser talking!) so i salute drogba. But i wish we'd won.
Then the Chelsea fans wouldn't be so much like their coach.
Man Utd and Arsenal was a good match to watch to. I supported dad's team. But the Man U fans were outnumbering the Arses anyway. And it's good to see good play rewarded.
Nothing much to say 'cos soccer doesn't affect me as much as it does some other people. =P
But i want this jersey....Aside from that, mangoes are kinda expensive (but nearly half price in vic mart as compared to a supermarket), bananas are slowly getting cheaper (only $8 a kilo as compared to $12 a month ago) and if you go to vic mart at 4 pm on saturday you can get lots of veggies for $1 a bag...
yay yay! i love these laid back days!

New Camera + Tulip Fest = Inspired Photography!

First Official Day of the Holiday: (as in it's the weekend!)
How tiring! After sleeping close to 5 am, woke up at 8 ish to get out of the apartment by 9 am. Gosh darn it.. not enough sleep! Anyway, semangat semangat cos the pictures Gung Gung had from last year's tulip fest were so gorgeous (or, he might say it was just him... hehehe)
Anyway, armed with my brother's 101 functions that i can't figure out yet camera, we (301 + Cc's Mummy) set off to Dandenong! Or, to be more precise, 357 Monbulk Road, Sylvan.
Took a tram, then a train, then a bus, then a cab to the Tulip place which took us around 2+ hours to finally get to!

Anyway, there were some dum dum photos taken....

~The Three SpAsTiKeErs~

Empty vessels make most noise...

But there were also nice photos.. especially playing with the macro function on the camera! Although quite ma fan to keep swopping between modes, eventually you find what works!

I like this colour!!!Flower model? Maybe you need something to contrast and make the flowers look prettier...

I think the red and blue contrast so well.. And the blur background works so well! credit to Izy's photography! This one i took. =)One red pair...One purple pair.... Makes you think of eyes... right? EYES!

The pretty little fairy hollow that they made

Anyway, after we'd walked all over the place, which took pretty much 2 or 3 hours, and had lunch and watched a very very very good bellydancer, well.. in my opinion anyway. Then we were gonna head back so i called a cab. But after a while i think they got sick of me and I couldn't call via my mobile and had to use Cc's. The long and the short of it.. "The cab could take hours to get out there". WTO!?!?!?
So we decided to walk the 4 km or so to Monbulk to catch the bus back to the train station. Time passes faster when you play silly games like on the spot alphabet. Try getting someone to say every letter of the alphabet to you and you replying with the first word that you can think of beginning with that letter. Really amusing! You sort of stumble at around L... and then you get things like O for Aubergine! *chuckle* At least aunty got to wear in her new prestos!
Finally got back, ate korean (recommended by Sugsy... good and cheap!), bought some groceries to try and make mango lassi, and came home to collapse...
Fun day out and i wanna make my whole holiday as full!!!

Btw, Cc's mummy (my aunty) leaving today already (4 am again). Bye Bye Aunty! Thank you for staying 301. Hope you enjoyed your stay and have a safe flight!

Moody Musings at 3 am

It’s 3 in the morning and I’ve just come back from celebrating two people’s 21sts.

I wish I was drunk.
But hey, when you’ve had a few drinks and you’re still not feeling happy, there’s gotta be something up. And what’s worse is when you see other people with their “significant others” around them… and you wonder where yours is.

*BiG SiGh*….

it sucks when you start thinking about all these things. especially in my situation. the good thing about noone reading your blog is that you can actually pour these things out into the empty oblivion of cyberspace.
So what's the big deal? We've been called FWBs (Friends With Benefits... what were you thinking?) and when people ask me if we're together... i either say i don't know (who says i don't know?!?!?) or feel the stab of pain from answering No. i fluctuate from days when i am satisfied with the world to days when i wonder what's the point and feel depressed at the finite nature
of this 'relationship'.

Bleah.

You know sometimes you wonder whether this is right?

The sad things you think of when your insecure... Issit a sign that someone doesn't love you when...
#1) He doesn't seem to think it's a big deal when you're apart
#2) He doesn't close his eyes when you kiss!
#3) Sleep is more important than time together
#4) He doesn't want anyone to see you together
#5) He doesn't want to admit to anyone that you're together!
#6) He doesn't make an effort to find out more about things important to you
#7) Sometimes when you say 'I love you' you wonder if the reply is forced

*SiGh* spelling it out makes me even more insecure
but really, sometimes you wonder if it's love when the person you think you're in love with has very few similar interests and sometimes just isn't the person you'd see yourself with. Maybe it's just fooling yourself by prolonging something that isn't there.

I used to tell myself that i knew it wouldn't last but i might as well enjoy the benefits of it while it lasts. But how fair is that to myself? I get so jealous of people who go so well together.
I dunno.... relationships are not my forte. And you'd think i'd have a good head on my shoulders for this.

When Somebody Loves You - by Frank Sinatra is playing on my iTunes.

thanks for the irony.

Well, at least i've got someone to croon me to sleep at 4 in the morning.

I think i should stop chasing boys....

Can someone please give me a man?

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Bye Bye Shiv.

Again.

i think someone up there is trying to rub it in.
Wake up call this morning:
"Hi Jeannie. Are you pretty much the only person in Student Club who's stayed on?"
It feels kinda lonely... maybe we just need time.

End of an Era...

So the AGM's over. All the politics of elections are done with and there's no more anticipating and speculating about what next year's student club will be. One regret? we forgot to set up the election betting pool. One thing i'm glad i forgot? Setting up the betting pool.
Haha... i'm being contradictory.
It was quite an unexpected outcome (for me anyway, which shows my gambling prowess... or lack of)
It's sort of like the transition from feeling like a fresher to being a senior... except that's in a space of months and this rushes at you all in one AGM.
Can you believe that I am the most senior experienced Student Club member? And 6 months ago i came in raw and bumbling about what to do (and how to start a meeting)
it's funny how the tables have turned in a matter of minutes. It's never fun to be the one that has to actually know stuff.
In hindsight, i sort of wish i ran for the top spot. I think i could've handled it. The turning point? Ironically, it was the questioning of my competence. I think there comes a point in your life when you realise that some things (or people) have just stopped fazing you - and that's when you know, or you hope anyway, that you've reached a new level. Epiphany that came too late. But then again, maybe the AO job will tire me out enough. It's just that the spot at the top sounds better eh? Thanks all the same though, you've made me find another part of myself.
It was a draining AGM, emotionally more than anything else, and sad, because it ended on that note. But the best times were had, and the new club will be a new challenge and new experience. I wish I could tell everyone that things work out somehow. The ones who missed out, the ones who are there, the ones who are shitting their pants at the daunting thought of what's coming. Every exit is just the entrance into another room - and sometimes being able to see everything in the room is scarier than just groping in the dark.
The next year will be.... interesting, to say the least. But what is life without a bit of spice?

Times a Changing

It's hours before the next AGM.
Change is coming! Don't realise how sad it is though 'til you hear someone say "Last day of being president!" (to someone else of course) and to make it a bit more emo, the forrest gump theme song comes on my itunes. Thanks.
I can't imagine it though. The seniors we had are valedicting this year. Pat, Kimy, Sarah, Buckley, Louby... they won't be around next year =( ~insert tears here~
It's like.. the end of an era. And the next student club is even more depressing. Why? 'Cos so many people are running uncontested! What happened to the IH spirit? Why doesn't anyone want to contribute anymore? Last year there were at least 2 candidates per post (and that's not counting those that trickled down from the top) but at least it showed that there were people with passion and enthusiasm. This year, people aren't fighting for it. It's not like a big honour to be on student club. Wanna be on? Easy, just put your nomination in. There's probably noone else running for it anyway.
Well, I guess it's the same as any other situation when you suddenly find yourself at the top of the ladder. You wonder how you ever got there and why your seniors were so much more competent than you.
It all works out alright in the end, right?
Right?